Okay so this is my last post on this blog. I’m not deleting it because I like reading my old posts, but I won’t be posting here. If you want the URL to my new blog, message me. WARNING: it is my personal blog. I will post personal things and things I like. If you get offended easily, don’t ask for my URL.
In other news, why am I still posting from this blog blah
So I started my other tumblr but I don’t know what to do now. I’ve had this one for about 3 1/2 years and I don’t remember how I started it or what I posted or how I started following people or how I got followers or or or ugh
Just saying…
I made a new personal tumblr. I will probably be deleting this one soon. If you want to follow my other one, send me a message NOT ANONYMOUS and I will give you my URL.
One thing that really makes me upset is that my church’s youth group is targeted towards one school and one group of people.
Which always leaves me wondering, “What about the rest of us?”
I’m horribly bad at keeping up with this thing now-a-days. I’ve been so incredibly busy that I’ve had no time at all to update you guys on my life.
For starters, the student ministry that my friends and I were starting that I mentioned a couple of posts back got cancelled. I am completely heartbroken about it and extremely saddened that this won’t be the change that is coming to my city. My advice to you all is in situations like these, it is best to work with people who have the same fire burning passion that you do. My passion is my city. I’m in love with it and the people and I’m ready for them to experience God. I believe this will be the generation that will finally wake up.
Also, I have a friend whom I love dearly with every bit of my heart. He makes my heart smile and although I can’t release many details about him, I would greatly appreciate if you guys could keep him in your prayers. He’s struggling right now with a lot.
I’ve been angry lately at the way most churches function. Now, I’m not targeting one church in general, but I’ve just been thinking about the many I’ve attended that have acted in this manner. I do not believe that the church should be a clique and target only one specific group. Rarely do you see outkasts in the church, because no one wants to reach out to them because they are different. And if they are at church, then they aren’t talked to because church is one big clique. I went to a Pentecostal church and of course I didn’t fit in because I’m not Pentecostal. In my head, the response to me coming would be that the church members would welcome me and love me and all that good stuff. Instead I am looked down upon. And that didn’t bother me simply because I was only visiting that church and because I already have Christ in me. My main concern is people who don’t.
School is stressful and I’ve gotten one nights worth of sleep since Sunday but I’m excited to see good grades.
I’m getting my next tattoo probably Friday, or early next week.
Right now, I’m at a point in my life that I have a lot of questions from God and I’m top impatient to wait for an answer. I believe my entire walk with Christ has consisted of me being impatient about one thing or another.
Anywho, that’s all I have for now. I love you all tremendously. If you have prayer requests, send them my way.
I want God to reveal new and wonderful things to me. I need an outpouring of the Holy Spirit. I feel like everyone around me is having breakthroughs and experiencing miracles, signs, and wonders but I am at a standstill. I need to move. I need to feel You again. I miss You.
I really dislike when people don’t like me for no apparent reason, then don’t confront me about it. Literally, I get along with everyone- minus a few rumors that have led people to think of me differently than they should. One thing I’ve always respected is confrontation. And to hear that somebody just doesn’t like me for something that isn’t true really bugs me, especially when they can’t even talk to me about it.
Please keep praying, you guys. Please read my last post. I am literally begging for prayer right. Please.
I don’t want to give away a name or gender, so let’s just say their name is “it”. It has been really suicidal and I’ve been talking to it everyday just try to brighten it’s spirits. The last time I talked to it was yesterday and it seemed extremely depressed. It turned off its phone early yesterday and hasn’t turned it back on since. I’m terrified that it is going to do something really stupid. I have no possible way to get in contact with it and no possible way to see it. I need you guys to pray with me. Hopefully, it hasn’t done anything yet but I don’t know. But I need you guts to pray against its thoughts of suicide with me. I’m literally begging you guys, please pray with me.
